Fall is finally here; took long enough. I grabbed this photo from my iPhone on the way to work.
My job currently entails selling, organizing, and overseeing operations of advertising and ad properties all over the city. The office moved from the upper west side to DUMBO down in Brooklyn; and it’s a pretty dope spot.
Also, I’ve already started to figure out plans to teach English in Korea; it’s just a matter of time. Meanwhile, I got to see N.E.R.D. live at a signing at Union Sq. woohoo!
Lastly, I got to meet up with Janie, after a whole year of not seeing her and it was awesome.
We had this awesome talk about life and love, and I came to the conclusion that if you don’t know what true love is,
how can you know if you are or aren’t in it?
I’ve come to realize that maybe, I never knew what true love is until recently, and maybe I never was in love.
Love is a selfless act, a feeling that is supposed to be never-ending, whether or not it benefits the self.
In the past, I can say that I “love” like someone who wants “love” in return, and yo, that isn’t love.
That erotic love a couple shares, the mix of lust and want. Food tastes different, breathing becomes harder, the chest becomes tight and the stomach lurches.
Brotherly love, or the love between friends. Not erotic but a strong feeling of dependency and commitment to someone who returns the same love. This sort of love is a relationship that needs reciprocation.
The eternal love, the love a mother shares for her child, God towards his people. No matter how bad a child acts up, the mom will still love the child. Even if the child leaves, dissapoints, maddens and disrespects the mother, if anything this might make the mother love her child more; to help nurture and find what’s best for the child.
I feel that I’ve only been able to have the capacity for that EROS and PHILOS type of love, with the AGAPE type only towards my family. Past relationships and friendships were always about giving in order to recieve; and I just feel like that isn’t what love is. There’s got to be a little bit of that, eternal-no-matter-what love I would say.
What do you think?
I’m still growing and living everyday. I’m sure in a year from now, I might be thinking or following something totally different.
I hope maybe this can help you understand a little bit about what you believe what love is.